Saturday, February 21, 2009


...Because that's where I want to be if they do.

A little semi-secret wish of mine: to buy an old farmhouse in Ireland with a bit of woodland and a bit out of the way. I indulge myself now and then by searching listing to see what's available. Found several the other day. But, that's of no consequence at the moment, just a vague, well, OK, actually, a very real plan for the future. Alas, this is now and I'm frying to many fish as it is, let alone trying to make the effort to move to another country, no matter how much it appeals and delights.

For instance, I've got six pages to go before the principal art is finished on "the Fracture of the Universal Boy". Then I've got to start at the beginning and do finish work, correct a few odd pages here and there, then get the script in it's finished form, then, do the finished design for the overall book.

Funny thing...due to financial necessity, I had to curtail work on it for several months, and when the time came to do the last chapter, I had a really terrible case of "stage fright" or something like it. You see, when I got within walking distance of the end it suddenly dawned on me how utterly final everything had become. It had grown up and had to stand on it's own two feet, separate from me. It was glaringly real. What had I wrought? was it all going to be moot and end up a cripple, unable to have a full, use full life of it's own? Have I wasted two and a half years for nothing?
I honestly can't say....but I do know the last chapter has been the most peaceful, and in it's way, the perfect ending to a story that at best is surreal, essentially anti modern, and perhaps far to individual to ever be anything but a curiosity.
Time, of course will tell.
And now, just a few random thoughts....
I'll say this again just because Karen has asked me to. She is no longer at eBay. That means you will not find any work of mine, from me personally there. She can be found under "Fhionn at Etsy".com. It's nicer there and so she says, a far friendlier place to sell.
I'm looking for a metal-smith, jewelry maker willing to trade for a commission to make a ring. I have an opal to set. You out there? If so, please write me. And don't even think of ripping me off buddy....I can and will sic the hounds of hell on you if you do.
I'm currently screwed up over a cut by Aphex Twin: "Heliophan" seems that it's a nonsense word, though one of some beauty. And I cannot for the life of me find a valid definition for the word.
Things like this drive me nuts.
I have approximately twenty five pieces for the one man show later this year, and I need a least ten more, possibly fifteen. And I need to matt and frame them all. *GAAHHH*

Sic transit gloria mundi .

Be kind to each other. Please.
It's five oh seven and I've been up since three twelve. Nap time for Michael later today.



rpolsky said...

Hooray for etsy!


markie said...

Your feeling about nearing completion of "Fracture..." reminds me of the hoary cliche, "Be careful what you wish for; you might get it!" Looking forward to seeing the eventual published version...

Sic transit gloria mundi???
Yes, some things, but others:
Die liebe Erde allüberall
Blüht auf im Lenz and grünt aufs neu!
Allüberall und ewig blauen licht die Fernen,

Also, thank you for the commission you sent me ("Run")! Best wishes...

Clay said...

helio indicating the sun, -phan indicating the appearance of, or resembling.